Gundam Seed: Final Destination - Chapter 15: Go there, to where my future belongs.

 

Time flies, and in a blink of an eye, the time has come to February 21.

 

 

Noel was still lying on the bed, holding a letter in his hand.

 

However, at this moment, there was no smile on his face, his eyes showed no spirit and his eyes were dull.

If you look closely, you will find that there are faint tears in his confused eyes, and he wonders why there are tears.

Several doctors in white were busy tidying up his broken bones.

Because of his sickly body, Noel could not use tranquilizers or anesthetics.

 

But even under such circumstances, the pain from the broken bones still did not make his heart ripple.

"Didi~"

 

While the doctors were busy sorting Noel's body, two beeps came from the door of the ward.

 

The door opened, and Creuset came in wearing a ZAFT uniform with an eye mask.

 

"What happened?" Creuset could not help but be slightly stunned at the scene in front of him.

 

No one answered him. The doctors were busy treating Noel, while the researchers were always checking the data.

Noel lay there, his eyes were misty.

Creuset opened his mouth to speak. Out of the corner of his eyes, he suddenly found the letter in Noel's hand.

"We just received information, the first, second, and third fleets of the Earth Alliance Forces are moving towards the Moon crater." Creuset then walked slowly to Noel and slowly picked up the envelope in Noel's hands.

 

From: Anna Joy

 

Mailing address: Junius Colonial Satellite, Junius7

 

To: Dear brother Noel Cassia.

 

In addition, there are letters signed by Lenore Zala and Athra Yoo.

 

However, except for their different names, their mailing addresses are the same, Junius7.

 

"Earth... Alliance Forces?" When Noel heard the words, he slowly turned his head to look at the Creuset. At this time, he did not know what to do to face all these things. He was angry, sad, painful, confused... all of them.

 

The Earth Alliance. He was once a part of the Earth itself.

In the beginning, he had great expectations and good feelings for the earth. He really wanted to visit the earth. Even though it was not his hometown, it was still the earth and the home planet of mankind.

 

Although he forced himself to escape from these two feelings every day and told himself that he would take things as they come, his reason kept telling himself that you are not a person from this world.

Even if your body structure is the same, your heart and soul are still incompatible with this world.

So he didn't have much sense of belonging to the earth from beginning to end.

In other words, he is no sense of belonging to the earth, but he still wants to visit the earth, because he once belonged to the earth, and he still loves and misses the earth.

This feeling lasted until he returned to the orphanage.

When he was worried, people in the orphanage accepted him. Athra gave him sincere feelings as his best friend, making up for his loneliness.

 

He let me know that there are friends here who still care about you, and I can be involved in it.

It turns out that I can find a place the one that can give me a sense of belonging again.

 

Anna is just like a naughty sister. Although she needs to be beaten, although he always wanted to beat her, Noel was really happy with Anna's naughty appearance, which was an unspeakable satisfaction.

Sister Aya, a girl less than 20 years old, to make herself look more mature and reliable, she dresses up as an old woman every day and learns to dress up as she does on TV.

Although she always looks different, Noel always remembers the warmth in her eyes, when she stares at everyone with love and care.

 

Sikel…

Peter…

Every companion in the orphanage is so sincere and warm, giving Noel who never had a sense of belonging and always felt lonely.

Although he would gaze at the starry sky and savor the suffocation of loneliness in the dead of night, as time passed, the sense of loneliness gradually disappeared.

And it is precisely because of the existence of Athra and the others, Noel can taste having a family again, and the taste of loneliness gradually disappeared, so he cherishes everything in the orphanage.

So even if he could roughly guess the name of the colonial satellite he stay and could always leave alone, he still did not choose to leave but chose to stay in the orphanage and hypnotize himself.

 

The hometown can't hold the body, and the other country can't hold the soul.*

No matter in the past life or in this life, Noel still chooses the soul.

In fact, he is not afraid of death. Even though he talks about how to survive every day, and even knows what is the best way to survive, he still chooses to stay with them in the orphanage.

Death is not terrible. When you don't know the meaning of life and can't find a sense of belonging and attachment in your heart, your breath will lose the meaning of existence.

 

As we said, only after you lose it, can you know how lucky you were?

However, he lost two times in a row, which made Noel deeply confused.

 

"They will reach the moon tomorrow." Creuset put down the letter and looked at Noel.

"Yeah." Noel slowly withdrew his sight and stared at the ceiling overhead.

"Are you going to continue to be depressed like this?" Creuset continued.

"Depressed?" Noel's expression was as indifferent as stagnant water.

"You can't find the future direction?" Creuset looked at Noel's expression, and could not help thinking of himself.

 

It's all so much like me. It’s almost the same as mine.

 

"The future... hehe." Noel looked at Creuset with a sneer. In the future, you, a guy who wants to destroy the world, told me about the future?

"Once I was like you, I couldn't find the meaning of life, didn't know where to go and didn't know where to return."

Then Creuset walked slowly to the window, he looked out of the window at the city's prosperity, clenched his fist, and said, "But it doesn't stop me from moving forward. Since I don't know where to go, I can go anywhere. I don't know where to go back, so I create my own home."

"Then what? What do you want to say to me? What do you want to express?" Noel asked in reply, this kind of no-meaning words really touched Noel's heartstrings.

"Do you want to know your future? Then stand up and go out. Wherever you go, your future is your future." Creuset turned and looked at Noel.

"Where is my future?" Noel slowly clenched the letter in his hand when he heard the words. Where I go is my future, but where I must go?

"Next, I will go to the Moon surface to participate in the defense war, fight for myself, and fight for my future!"

Creuset said while he walked to the door of the ward under Noel's gaze, turned his head to Noel, and said: "If you don't know where your future is, where you should go, and where you belong, then stand up and move forward. At least it's easier to get the answer than lying here."

 

With the door slowly closing, Creuset disappeared from the ward.

"Stand up and move on..."

*ED notes: In your hometown, you can no longer support your body, but if you want to go to another place, you still don’t have a sense of belonging. You feel that your soul is still in your hometown. The so-called homeland is hard to leave. Who is willing to leave their hometown to go away.

To live, you have to learn to communicate. Socializing has become an indispensable thing, and you have to shuttle in hotels, guesthouses, teahouses, cafes, and restaurants... When you see a beautiful lady and a gentle waiter, you will find that it is so easy for people to become degenerate. , when looking at them, they are instead sympathetic, not daring to disdain them. You have no right to accuse someone who is forced to make a living and earn a living in another way. (Source: Baidu)